just to get a little

everyday

2012-01-31T23:10:00.002+08:00

今天有一点想哭

2011-12-14T20:07:00.004+08:00

还要再撑9个月我久久盼望的“自游”将游回我掌控

厌倦这频率束缚着我的心跳呼吸

难受但也没折

忍受将变习惯

有时后不干心也想勇敢不顾一切冲动的任性一次

但勇气也常象流星终就堕落

平常

质疑是否世界还会有人相信我的梦

相信我的天马行空我的倔强我的坚持

失落

檐着光线用手指画出太阳的形状

痴迷着自己虚拟的艺术

生命也被指尖画过去

我

到底在为了什么活下去

enlighten me..

结果还是空虚..... -_-"

2011-11-28T19:53:00.003+08:00

wanna paint my room...... =)

生日快乐维乐

2011-11-27T01:18:00.007+08:00

xavier(my ocs bed buddy) sent me a very depressing text...

"i forgot what's my motivation and why i wanted to be an officer"

i reply that ocs instructor

"find out from ur cadet lo.. maybe u will recall.. lol"

and so my 22nd birthday passed peacefully simple ending the day with a dinner

mummy deliberately took an off day waiting patiently at home for me to book out from camp..

arigato.. (ty too to all that wished and celebrate for me.. *grin)

i did't breathe a word about my birthday in camp.. wonder why am i so close up so emo.. age is a factor or just feeling unfamiliar without a platoon sharing my happiness?

ai ya.. where's my cpc where's my sect comm where's my buddy.. missing all of them..

“谢谢你还记得我那青涩的坚持”

有一些lovesick

或许想找个伴来分担

终是挨不过寂寞带来的暗淡

where's my 太阳?

是否还有

一个肩膀在等待依靠

一个空虚等待人填补

一个爱请等我去追逐

-肉麻

and now a new chapter, end of OCS

2011-10-20T13:40:00.003+08:00

and so a commission officer i am.. 9 months of military training ends at the toss of our peaked cap..

CLM

1 white strap cadet rank presentation

tower run

initiation, 2 white strap

family visit

IPPT

Service Term

Skylark

Centipede

Cougar

Rhino
Platoon outfield
Scorpion King

24km march 3 white strap rank presentation on elephant hill

8km fast march beret presentation

BLOCK LEAVE!

IPPT

Pro Term

SEOC

IPPT

Hunter I

Hunter II

Wolf
Castaway
Robison Crusoe
LANCER(bunei)

-Chindit

-Temada
-Hornbill
-JCC

UO live firing

Dump-In

Jaguar
intership
CSB

STARLIGHT(taiwan)

-Homerun

-Pieces

ATP

Panther

Platoon Assault Course
ACPC

Commission lo!

forget all the challenges ppl talk about we'll be facing..

now just celebrate.. =)

we're million miles of water, apart

2011-09-04T16:15:00.004+08:00

feels like it here too..

ensemble

2011-08-31T15:41:00.006+08:00

booking in again 3 hrs later... =/

ytd went out with da and gy.. wanted to go buckaroo but they complain it being too pricey.. end up at upp thomson long house

1st stop long hse

ate prawn mee.. not nice lei, bo standard..

2nd chiong pang

feeling hungry still(i think is just me ha!) we head to chiong pang for some tau huey.. but poor willard can't stop munching along the way (goreng pisang, red bean, magnum double caramel, and 2 bottle of yeo's).. when we reach i was too full to stuff anything down my throat.. haha walk to a nearby swing to rest..

3rd gy hse

just a short walk away frm chiong pang.. time check 23:00.. i can't believe chicken rice is still selling.. haha 是天意.. with extra meat and a bowl of peanut soup... nice...

just love hanging out with "banana" we never runs out of food and nonsense..

i remember and reflects-

photos on ur wall is interesting.. you look sweet and i'm happy for you.. =)

i'm no longer who i think i am..

the values, habits, thoughts and experience have compose me differently from what i believe i am..

i'm thankful for the transformation done upon me..

changes are constant but only You who brings me joy remain unchanged

everlastingly

go your way...

2011-08-08T21:01:00.005+08:00

am i walking this alone?

so fast... mine 10th month serving ns, army.. just another 1 yr to go.. and i will be ORDing soon.. lol.. everything really seems to fly by me lightyear fast .. i try to consolidate my thoughts, making sense to those senseless things, finding meaning at those meaningless past...

so fast... i'm already coming 22 this year.. i met banana -gy, da and lun ytd.. come to think of it.. they've been around for 10yrs now.. i'm appreciative.. secondary school days with them are still back of my head...

my sis says it right.. your 20's will be double paced.. cherish it..

so fast.. tonight i'll be flying off taiwan for exercise... when i come back it'll be just 7wks to commission.. to the day i've been praying for.. the day i'll see my mum smiling, wearing those epaulette on my shoulder..

why so emo?? i don't understand.. it's not like i'm not coming back from this life changing experience.. maybe i'll leave some bad habit, wrong concept there.. bringing back new ideas, new hope... perhaps i'm just afraid of these changes..

recently i took a 1star class with chow jf wy and eh.. we enjoyed it.. and shared how we miss those time we(not to forget loon, yt, mx) sit around at PM waiting talking playing time away.. it's not like we can't do it now no more.. but we no longer can afford that..

evolution? or just aging.. just a method of explanation... words are that cheap.. it doesn't sums up to anything..

i love You

love sick?

2011-08-07T00:37:00.004+08:00

歌罗西书

无论做甚麽,都要从心里做

some went their own way

2011-07-23T00:15:00.005+08:00

"I love the infantry because they are the underdogs. They are the mud-rain-frost-and-wind boys. They have no comforts, and they even learn to live without the necessities. And in the end they are the guys that wars can't be won without."

-Erine Pyle

这人来人往的世界

是否失去后才学会

不是grass is greener at the other side

而是you are always looking at the other side

珍稀你拥有的一切

才不会在回头时叹惋

just 11 more weeks i will be commissioning.. to now i have not regretted choosing infantry as my vocation.. indeed we have come a long way and we know more shit is coming our way still.. haha... we welcome with open arms those who joined us and gave out best wishes to those who progress without us..

nevertheless.. all of us.. choosing to stay here thru this 27 weeks of tough training... is a decision that is life changing... =)

push for our last stretch! 82/11 Charlie wing!

after jcc

2011-07-12T02:36:00.005+08:00

21 days out of homeland.. 9 days of wilderness...

EX.normad, explorer, forager, trekker

finally completed jcc.. "purpose-discipline-professionalism"- lakiun camp's motto

this motto have kept my team moving and many times navigate us back on track.. been deeply impacted by the teachings and experience brunei has offered..

a little more i cherish this peace time she build..

a little more i stand in awe this world He mould...

披上一份绝心继续勇敢下去

next up starlight, panther and of course the long waited commissioning..

也不是我三心两意

也不是你一心二用

一场戏一首歌一辈子

起浮不定

跟着旋律摆动也是一种用心

一份情用一生细细品尝

简单的相信幸福就在下一站

before i fly off

2011-06-20T16:32:00.002+08:00

-gonna have dinner with my mum..

-text all of them

-tidy up my room

-rmb to bring everything needed

-keep my morale up

post again when i return.. =)

see ya!

a little of myself a little of just now a little everywhere

2011-06-12T18:03:00.011+08:00

just went to onsight with chow and vincent.. that place so boring! maybe because it's new, they have yet bring in "life" to their tiles and gym....

even when the gym is not that fun i still enjoyed myself...

- i realise i don't just love climbing.. i love the companies..

gg to brunei, jcc, soon.. so excited and very nervous..

so now i'm officially left with 8 more days, a spoiled bb(damn the customer service center), a broken toe nail and some anxiety before i fly off to lakiun camp...

i want it.. desperately for the badge to be sewed on my smartest 4.. but then again it's not the pride i'm heading and reaching.. it's the experience.. the decision to be specific.. i want to come to a point where i, being physically tired yet, make that decision to press on.. - to move on

never i want to look back thinking i could have got it.. i want to look back, i did it....

recently, while searching for my stuff in my garang guni room, found my kk ltc trip's diary..(actually i only wrote a few sentences).. read what jacob left for me back at sabah.. a quote that change my life..

"going outdoor to find yourself again" -jacob...

it seems a little familiar.. like gg to the wilderness to wrestle for 40 days.. haha...

it makes a picture.. He taught me a lesson...

i guess the desire to impress have overtaken the desire to excel..

now i'm gg back to the basic, to the start, to the heart... and really move on this time...

Moments where i sit around with my friend.. letting time pass us by.. waiting for something to happen..

a motivation

2011-05-15T03:02:00.006+08:00

"All right, they're on our left, they're on our right, they're in front of us, they're behind us...they can't get away this time."

- lewis "chesty" puller

Lieutenant General, US marine corps

I really wonder if i can pick up my courage and make such quote in times of pressure?

I'm really sick of those so called officers....... refresh, restart, reboot, recharge my mind.. tune it to Your frequency..

april 16, little soul to soul

2011-04-16T08:03:00.005+08:00

again this date.. haha...

many event to update
-enlist ocs
-did a 28 days RCP and total 32 days in camp stay
-just 1 more week to pro term

i wonder what really motivates me(that much)?

anxiety about the future..
so truthfully, i asked myself, i'm running this race for a greater purpose or just matching my self-esteem? is again the pride issue...

why is EVERYONE so prideful bout their success? you should know very clearly the moments you stop, prolong, to celebrate your present victory is also time that you're wasting away to getting closer to your finishing line..
gotta stop dwelling on our pass successes..

the future is filled with uncertainty, that alone makes living... fun.

i splinter my life in front of You just so You can glue me back with love.

messed up

2011-02-04T11:45:00.009+08:00

part of this world but not of this world ; i'm

2010-12-31T08:41:00.005+08:00

i wasn't aware that 2010 is coming to an end till i read the many fb status.. i was fb stalking everyone, all.. haha..

i'm updated and tune myself a little nearer to this world..

tired... tired about everything that's constantly circling my mind.. i need to steer my mind and set it on a right path... i need to break free...

freedom without limits.

christmas.. love and sharing..

2010-12-24T19:09:00.007+08:00

-it's gonna be christmas in a few hours time

-it's gonna be my 8th week in bmt

both must be celebrated, exaggeratingly.

i'm actually staring at my army phone constantly waiting for smses in camp, like some noob. haha.. i'm hoping there are more messages for me to read, at least then, i won't realise that i've already detached from the world.

i try to find the balance. meeting as much friends i can every book out. it makes me feel a little more connected this way. i guess that SOL week really pinch me hard, (sol- stoppages of leaves.. I MISFIRED!) it's such a sad friday when i called my mum to inform her i won't be booking out. i tear..

ahha sounds like some sad story.. but guess what.. my mum is just epic.... she"nvm lor.. i finally can have 1 weekend for myself" follows by a.. HAHAH.....

completely spoils mood....

希望和期待

i miss you

beginning and ending...

2010-11-09T01:50:00.009+08:00

i'm enlisting army in about 8hrs time... a little everything i'm feeling..

nervous, scared, excited, tired, hungry

to be exact and factual, lost....

闭上眼, 用心想着明天时

明天... 在睁开眼后, 来了..

i need a 月光宝盒 too...

2010-10-26T23:56:00.004+08:00

i wonder if anyone reading know bout this movie..

<大話西遊>

haha was one of my favorite movie of all time..

there is 2 parts to it.. the 3rd episode will be out soon i guess.. =)

(i really wonder who understand what i talking here, speaking some ah pei term, the movie released on 1995 haha!)

well sharing an emo song with some clips of the movie..

reminds me of you...

pre ns syndrome... i need a run away....

也許老天真的对你不公平但是老天又真的对谁公平过呢?

2010-10-10T02:53:00.010+08:00

this enormous depression..

go away please..

so nice to be welcomed back by many friends.. embrace by their love and care.. i feel so fortunate.. =)

i was told by my dentist i might have the chance to take out my braces before NS.. haha what a great news.. i've been wearing it for the 6th year now (yes i know is damn long)..

ytd (i forgot how it got there) when i briefly told shiming my face is like not symmetrical before i put on braces(suppose to be a joke).. the 2 choong suddenly :"ya ya ya.. i remember HAHA!"

super -_-" can??

then again... life have really undergo serious changes in this 7 years i got to know the choong brothers..

i still rmb wayne told me 7 is like a special number to him.. because it took him that amount of time to officially become a leader..

hmm.. frankly speaking deep inside my heart.. i hope 7 can be special for me too...

no longer i wanna be bounded by some nonsense reluctant half minded indecisive faith... help me....

"the greatness of a man's power is the measure of his surrender"

after 17 days of travelling......

2010-10-03T23:27:00.008+08:00

just got back from backpack/climbing trip.. =)

more than experience i've retrieve..

i sorta understand now why others says NS set ppl thinking.. for not much chance you will receive such long period of time to just sit around, read a book, think of what's the next move...

i've never felt so helpless, so clueless of what's life is..

he,crowd lu, sang it just right...

there's just too much things i wanna do, refuse to miss.. but then so what's after i've accomplish them?

i just hope many year from now, looking back, my history shall be His story.... =)

不管在那只要我用心想着你

之间的距离似呼靠近一点

i'll see you soon

2010-09-14T22:47:00.002+08:00

don't really like bye bye....

prefer 再见.. like telling each of us.. we're gonna meet again...

haha...

一围一围的难题

给今天套上一层雾

迷蒙了我的视力

但

倔强的我相信

明天以然美好 =)

thursday is coming..

17:5 使徒對主說,求主加增我們的信心

2010-08-30T19:18:00.013+08:00

正当烦恼涌上头脑的顺间，接到你在手机影幕的暖喧 "hahahahahahha"

不知道是不是我傻了还是你的刚好动摇了我封闭的思序

想把所有都往你那抛

好久好久没有这强列的冲动有一点不习惯也感到一点凸兀

不明白会不会是来临的NS 赶着我想完成一些什么

haiz... 想到我一天一天的接近心冷心凉啊! hahaha

从计划每个明天到即将让陌生人规划你 1yr 10months, monday to friday..

须要时间来接受

他们说我在那也能得到不少收货

可能吧

但总觉得在那的收货不reciprocal to "不亲愿的"付出..

不知道la!

一切的担犹,希望在见到你之后都瓦解.. =)

where's your heart tonight?

haha.. classy jay chou's song..

a day with more than 20hrs of sleep

2010-08-25T21:43:00.007+08:00

maybe it does make a difference.. maybe i can make a difference...

i'm feeling ill now... vomit like mad the whole day, must be that kimchi fried rice ytd night after climb.. zzz.. i only ate a piece of bread and 5 mouth of noodle(i can count) since kimchi.. wow like some extreme losing weight programme.. haha..

taking photo of daddy using his phone

then force daddy to see.. HAHA!

i took these at chong pang hawker after kayaking lesson with chow & vanga at sembawang wv.. =)

hey!

-number the days

again and again

2010-08-12T23:41:00.012+08:00

it's my very very first ww trip with friends of my same age... finally they lighten the burden of those funny sacarsm from all the ah pei (yes all the previous trips it was me and all the uncle) HAHA...

i really enjoy myself... and again(never fails) i come back appreciating my life even more, giving birth new dreams/hope/visions/ideas..

ah~ the river... =)

the upcoming river gang

i'm tremandously happy to see their smiley face on our way back in our comfy small van.. as though the trip was the prize of those many trngs we commit.. many more descent to come pals! and many more sambal we'll swallow at malaya friends! hahah...

God have been generous and merciful to me..

my rock shoes which was just 2 mths old got herself a mouth right at the tip.. i was really demoralise by it.. i was afraid it could't last till the coming rock trip.. but He's always providing..

when i was complaining to the air bout the shoe, mum heard me.. and you guess it.. she gave me the life-saving amount of $200 to buy myself a new pair... =)

i appreciate much.......... allez!

well definitely i'm still excited about ipoh, climbing... but while i was browsing thru my fav site youtube.. this just caught my eyes..

this which i had been dreaming since young...

this which is the reason i can stare to the sea for hours..

this have always made me ask my friend ,who wanna get something for me from overseas, to just simply bring back a photo of their local beach....

this

-surfing

btw i change my template music.. go listen... =)

you who made me smile..

2010-08-02T23:33:00.006+08:00

if there is anyone who is reading this post... i just wanna tell you.. i'm thankful YOU existed in my life..
not taking into consideration the time we've spent..
or what we've done/create neither considering how important it is...
even you there who just briefly know me..

i hope you can
please remind yourself of only how i smile looking at you..
or how i laugh with my loud irresistible expression HAHA! BHB!

because.. i'm happy and thankful for how you've shaped my life...

been posting lots of video recently.. don't get bored you there..
i'll be grabbing photos this coming national day at whitewater kayaking!
so wait for my next.. =)

L.O.V.E

2010-07-28T00:11:00.003+08:00

hear with only your mind(brain) and u will only hear what is correct
see with only your mind and u will only see what is reasonable
speak with only your mind and u will only speak forth justice

so
hear with also your heart and u will hear also with compassion
see with also your heart and u will see also the truth
speak with also your heart and u will speak also with authority(power)

therefore
LIVE with not just your mind.. BUT.. live with your heart..
and you will live off a life of love..

for
if the most vital part of a human body is the heart(that actually makes everything possible).. then the most important virtue for human would be love..
for the greatest of these is love..

fly my heart to where she belongs..

suicidal (?) (!) (.)

2010-07-24T12:27:00.004+08:00

such fragile....

life......
memories that's haunting me....

失望

2010-07-16T16:58:00.005+08:00

felt so bad.. especially when expectation is not met...

paisei ah mum... =/
给我一点时间..
整理一下心情,继续走下去..

gy-trips ahead-rawr!

2010-07-14T14:44:00.006+08:00

i wonder what jel want me to write? haha...
anyway maybe she wants me(or i personally hope so) to wish my missing 3 weeks buddy ng gy...
thanks so much for the day of fun and gathering..

to our gonnabe officer, work your very best jiao wei!
for you

alright there isn't much blog worthy stuff that happened recently but definitely what's ahead..

whitewater trip on national day (think 4 days)
climbing trip @ipoh,KL (guess 9 days?)
outdoor education conference 2010 @ oct

driving test (this fri)
hopefully L1 assessment part II
and refresh courses for my 1st aid licence soon

i need a runaway....

when the table turns and pieces form to a picture...

on bus 168 to tamp

2010-06-28T01:11:00.008+08:00

i always wonder why they can be so creative just to air their armpits....???

i know u are not suprise... in the train asking yourself why they are not grabbing the railing just beside them but choose to stretch their arms all the way to the roof to balance themself...
ask yourself no more... like me, PRESUME that they just need to air their armpits...

okie aniway he sat beside me in the bus(wasn't some photo i grab on stomp alright)
i was waken by a sudden plunge of odd oder in the atmosphere... and there i found myself in such an unwelcoming position..
as if he tries to suffocate me with his smelly underarms..
what a way to treat the local's youth...zzz...

i just came back from jf and wy's chalet.. =)

yeah for father's day i grab a bottle of beer for dad... hopes he likes it..

a song for you.... =]

sudden thought of you.. thank you very very much!

未经一番寒彻骨焉得梅花扑鼻香

2010-06-23T19:14:00.004+08:00

I SHALL NOT BE DISTRACTED..
I SHALL NOT BE DEMORALISED..
I SHALL NOT BE SWAYED..
I SHALL NOT BELITTLE MYSELF..
I SHALL NOT BE LAZY..
I SHOULD CONQUER!!

chiong arrrr.....!! haha...

一样的天空不同的承诺, 我赤裸的双腿将踏出幸福的地图!

老爸

2010-06-17T02:00:00.001+08:00

this sunday....
father's day....

it's my chance... =)

slow down, change ur gear.. for the sloppy roads ahead.....

2010-06-13T01:19:00.006+08:00

patience is the ability to wait with great attitude under immerse pressure

have i really been patience to those problems in my life?
did i press on? (or had i ran away?)
all this thinking have circling at the perimeter of my brain..
it brings much sorrow, grief and most of all regrets....
what exactly have i done all this while?
what exactly have i done all this while?
what exactly have i done all this while?!?!

nothing.......

i'm still lazy, unmotivated.. (as usual)
i picked up a few sports.. grow some muscle.. got a little tanned..
did a diploma
what else?!

i'm still struggling financially
relationship with dad are still hanging half dead there
i still can't focus (ironically i made a presentation on power of focus on oral com and scored an A hahah)

i'm really a MAC trailer with a volvo engine!
where's the :"you got 1 life to spare" &
"peperation meeting opportunity" 16yrs old young chap with hugh dreams and great determination wwent?
now i'm just like playing table tennis -meet another problem/racket?.. nvm i'll just touch it and go another problem that are easier to solve..... being more vulgar i'm now being a LPPL!
when/how the hell my BREAKTHROUGH gonna come this way?!!

all this while i've not been patience with my "moutains".. allowing it to intimate me....
(when i typed this i suddenly remembers how impatience i was with eugene.. i'm so sorry chow... haha.)
need some change, desperately..
i gotta start packing my bag and start walking and stop talking.... hhaha....

really like how switchfoot(band) got their names from surfing term... switching foot to get a better stance to ride the waves...

time to switch my rusty foot.....

(re)joy

2010-06-03T02:19:00.003+08:00

wanted to post something long... talks bout what happen recently... haha..
think i'll leave that to next one....

i've been tremendously bless lately
and there's this joy that i realise(from FB's photos i was tagged haha) i can't hide flowing out of me thru my smile..
it makes me wanna give(in everyway, to everyone, all)..
in short i fell in love with EVERYBODY again..
like peace drenching me on a cloudy day....
like the clock move a second slower every ticks, just to double every happy second for me..

the morning, the air and all those butterflies are for me and you..

i've been keeping my hopes unbroken

2010-05-09T20:05:00.004+08:00

it's been around for some time but recently i re-appreciate it
this song just copy-paste my mind..

maybe that's what i need to do...
maybe i am
or maybe i'm just thinking too much

"unafraid what's ahead"..

i just love jack johnson much..

2010-04-25T00:34:00.001+08:00

thank You

2010-04-21T00:49:00.004+08:00

today i'm no longer poor..

at heart,soul,mind,social life and my dear pocket.. WOOTZ!
ty boss for my pay and some loot i grab
ty gy for the nice time at geylang(sound erotic) haha...
THE FREAKING CHEENA NOODLE IS DAMN WORTH THAT KUKU 4 DOLLARS!!!

k.. nuff nonsense.. meow... =)

i wanna have some fun!

2010-04-10T21:24:00.005+08:00

what a meow meow today...
got to do kayaking orientation for nus-someidunnowhichhall-student.. learn a lot from ah sim(gangster).. went to round seletar island from sembawang... haha btw wy got stung by jellyfish wtf-ish man...

meow meow ytd, the day before and the previous day
i got to do 1 star for SOTA... ah.. pretty nice ppl..
somehow i felt so much difference in teaching and attitude towards kayaking compare to other co-instructors... random...

went bbq ytd at wayne's hse.. haha.. i like that damn lefttheretorot cny biscuit!
i appreciate... =)

i was staring this on my way back singapore
the sky makes me sleepy
我想诺无其事的不去做不去想不敢梦
寂寞也可能算是一种解脱
i wanna be brand new... =)

bye =)

2010-04-01T14:44:00.002+08:00

poor toes for that chio bu

2010-04-01T07:42:00.003+08:00

yes yes yes lots to tell..... haha..

1st..
passed my bloody diploma! hahaa.. wootz!!!

2nd
expedition with water venture was a fruitful experience...
kayaked back flo semb and pasir ris (nb punggol water seriously tmd dirty)..

lastly..
i'll be leaving for (yes u guess it correctly i decided to be penniless from now till may) my whitewater course tonight! haha..
i sometime just question myself why i can be so "brave" leaving my month with not a single cent to spare.. haha.. maybe that's just me... i just can't afford opportunity to slip pass me..

*during expedition
vanga : " aye why u no girlfriend ah? stupid peranakan.. "
lard : "er......... aye......... hahhhahahhaa... diam la indian.."

anyway i was working at bedok reservoir on a pontoon.. then i was staring this si bei chio cjc canoeist... and kicked my toes to the anchor bar.. nao hya!!! very pain AH and very chio AH! haha... (z-enk toes)
lame..

very 无聊

2010-03-15T15:23:00.002+08:00

wow si bei sian ah stuck at home with a injured foot, raining outside and the only thing left for me to do is clean up my room... ZZZ!

发现想念的
不是十七岁的那爱情
而是十七岁的.. 自己..
=)

decision making...

2010-03-15T00:53:00.004+08:00

caught book of eli... no comment.. just know that don't catch movie on 2am like us, lun gy da and birthday boy-yz!... haha...

alright wish lun have nice 21days in taiwan.. with army! haha...

i can really sense some goodness floating towards me.. yes... floating..
there will be a whitewater kayaking course soon for me.. and i'm on a dilemma like the previous time whether to go not.. cos it will cost me bloody $630 this time round...
consideration..
1. i will need to take a total of 8 days leave(from my 1st 20 days of work) haha... boss will kill me if it's legal..
2. i've exactly $630 ytd(POSB coincidentally mocking)... i'm gonna need to pay for my insurance soon,today.. that means... zzz haha x2!
3. (assume i raise that money and go for the trip) i'll left with $0 for the next 27days of the month!!!

and that's also the same exact situation the previous time! omfg...............
just send some cash down pls jehovah.. haha...

cycling bodohs'

2010-03-12T01:17:00.008+08:00

ytd went back wrs to play basketball! ahhaa...
dumb fun!!! but now my feet a bit z-enk(swollen)... bo bian used running shoes play bb ta bai like that... haha..

mon went cycling at malaysia with chow and gy.. haha... tmd fun...

after we came back then straight chiong to ECP for my new found hobby(i know chow and gy was bit tired.. but i chose to ignore and smoke them to..)
WAVEBOARD!!! haha.... si bei fun... board till 8 plus.... WOOO!!!! then dinner at subway till 10 i think....
i hope some kind soul will buy me one.... =)
bloody $149 selling at ecp...

也不就这样.. =)
my new idol (right after jack johnson, switchfoot, 五月天, kobe, j kidd, eric jackson, adam ondra, kelly slater etc...... haha can't seems to finish listing)
yvon chouinard......

before sleep..

2010-03-06T02:30:00.002+08:00

i'm done with school.. bit lost..
well i got a job the very next day i finish the last paper.. haha..
many thanks..

怀念看海的时候
怀念看下去的勇气
怀念过去的一点一滴
haha always got emo before bed..

突然好想......

byebye chang

2010-02-25T01:21:00.006+08:00

bye bye
i enjoy this 6 years with you(although u this 2 years flying back frequency lessen.. tmd..) thanks for everything from the stuff you gave me to the lesson you taught me..
and i know u gonna soon start work in aus soon.. which also means even slimmer chance for you to return and spend your life away with our nonsense.. haha..
愿你一切顺风 my friend.. julian chang.....

when i forced him to watch switchfoot's concert with me.. haha

just 7 days/a week to the last day of school...
有一点小紧张.. haha.. all to be well.. =)

幸福在那?

2010-02-10T23:06:00.013+08:00

btt passed.. =)
new year is coming.. home finally feels a bit like we're gonna celebrate.. i saw some soft drinks in the fridge and 1 pack of ruffles(which gonna be mine haha).. and food for our steamboat + watching tv session..

my mind doesn't want to.. but my body, habits, is reacting like you..
no matter how much i dislike.. i find so much similarities between you and me..
nahh...
i won't forgive myself if i would to age like you..
dad.

希望下一站就是幸福....
-stepping off to become a responsible man..

wake me up when my train finally arrive...

you'd be my train?
bring me far far away....

無名 lilian

2010-02-06T17:33:00.005+08:00

我很喜歡別人問我問題
因為思考的感覺非常好
每當頭腦在運作時
就特別有存在感
讓我有種活著的感覺
忘記了看似很好
實際卻有如行屍走肉般的生活

最近很高興看到身邊好多的好朋友們
臉上都帶著幸福的微笑
其實我也任憑所有可以幸福的機會四處流竄
我嘗試
我接受
我認真去感受
但....這之間總覺得少了些什麼?

我找不到之前那份屬於我的熱情
也感受不到生活中應有的激情
微笑的背後是用敷衍的態度在過著每一天
聽起來似乎有點苟延殘喘
就這樣一天過一天
每一天我都好像呼吸著最後一口的空氣
跟明天說再見的同時
明天...就來了

wow 無名美女 also got 内涵 wor.. haha... very interesting post she wrote..

就这样过了我的一天

2010-02-05T22:07:00.006+08:00

went swimming just now.. random right? i was watching 康熙來了 then spill my cup of water on floor..
was playing the water on ground with my feet.... then you know what happen.. xD got too happy/excited playing la.. haha...
went rp's haha!

aye guys aussie shit is back... so tuck in ur legs so u can spring out of ur couch when i sms you...

haha.. julian is back till 25th.. wtf again he dua us by giving us short notice and no time to meet..
alright i can smell lots of outing coming... hopefully.. =)

it's been so long i can't rmb how long.. i'm gonna have a sea/water-less, rock-less, rope-less saturday tomorrow...
haha..

i'm pretty lost(and some extent sian + lonely) cos my friends are all busy and know that my sat is always not available.. (just now when i ask lian out tomorrow.. he:"tomorrow? i tot ur sat is forever burned? why not we meet sunday") what?! aussie haven been back sg for at least a year.. how he know?! so that's how my last year was too?
and shitty sunday i got trng.. =/

maybe i should just give myself some slag and start meeting out with friends again... or maybe i should just train harder on weekdays then weekend might be free! haha..
well just 26 more days till i'm done with last paper and waive good bye...
就这样过了三年..

how i hope u ask me out... =)

hello.. xD

2010-02-02T22:29:00.013+08:00

i just done my L1 coach lesson last week end.. and is really nice to meet shukor... (when i told ai chin shukor taught us.. she: "haha.. hit jackpot liao").... indeed...what a great teacher..
~in youth we learn, in age we understand..

thanks for the lesson and great experience.. =)

today totally off form at climb asia lor... think because i'm just recovering from the bad flu i got from last tue climb(wanna act pro, then force myself to climb a lot more routes = immunity system down...) haha..

when i just part with eug from climbing then he sms this shit

chow: i'll travel across the land, searching far and wide.. each pokemon to understand, the power that's inside.. POKEMON, it's you and me. I know its my destiny......... etc (the whole song)

me : WTF IS THAT ABOUT??!!!

chow: nothing

me: wtf...................................................................

chow: just for laugh ma..... ;)

i think he climb too much.... haha..
aye do rmb we have to meet to discuss bout wv's expedition k...... wow... lots of work ahead!

and

i enjoy my yesterday! hehehehe.... =P
thanks for making my day smiley....

napfa yeah!~

2010-01-28T22:02:00.003+08:00

I PASSED MY NAPFA..... FULL MARKS!! hahha.. lame... did't expect that..
but it comes with great effort and trng.. and it all pay off well.. =)
thanks a lot!

went climbing on tue with chow and gha.. and i brought chalk bag without chalk to climb.. haha.. derrrrr....
but it all turns out well.. cos eug bought me a bag of new chalk! haha..

i signed up for climb asia membership and it cos me 40$... sian.. then might be buying new harness too (jacob pass me $30 voucher whoo!).. so this week might have $100+ extra expenses... ahhhh....
haha.. hoping a lot of cny then..
okie next week tue meiqi coming to climb with us.. wonder if she would join us for long.. then she'll be the 1st girl that join us climbing! haha..

i'm pretty confuse.. =/
but am happy cos am still happy..

hey

2010-01-28T09:02:00.008+08:00

will blog when i come home later from napfa... wonder how i will do?

wonder how are you.... =)

photoish post...

2010-01-21T20:36:00.013+08:00

took quite a few photos lately... just wanna keep some mental and physical image of these random moments.. haha..

alright ytd i came home early.. and when i went into my room.. there's an unfamiliar and unfriendly scent... then i realise what is it.... haha...

eug i think u know why...it all started from the last natural wall climb... the yr 1 followed us.. and mr kind here was generous enough to prostitute my rock shoes... haha... but the worst part is i forgot to air it, till the next climb session which is bout 1 week later at climb lab..
then now got this strong salted fish smell that refuse to go.. (contain i guess 4-5 foot sweat) haha... DAMN!

so it is now PR to my window.. well-aired..
with my chalk bag beside.. best buddy.. =)

and to my delight! mummy wash my trek shoes for me.. hhaha...........
u must be asking when i used my trek shoes lately that i need washing... YES! u are not wrong... right back from KK the last i time i used (oct).. haha...
mum ask me i wanna preserve the soil i bought back from there is it... hahha... random..
she quite humorous ah? nice try girl! =D

oh yeah then wanted to post this note i made this morning.. cos that alfiyan and vijay is late for class (as usual) for TMD near to 3 hrs.. mr kind again tot of making notes for them, so my hand writing must be neat...

well you can see i gave up after 1st line the word "change".. hahaha... ironic..

oh ya not to forget.. LOTS OF YAKULT....

and having fun disturbing lab aunty at yakult factory.. hahhaahhaaha
feeling lots of misses here... =/

uncle killer

2010-01-20T00:11:00.004+08:00

my distorted fingers.. with chalk
yeah just came back not long from climbing.. today is pack with LOTs of ppl at climb asia.. don't even have a wall without having to queue.. =/
(as usual gy ps me.. jewelry sick ah.. bo bian.. gf > lard.. haha..)
i got to talk to daniel and surprisingly he know lim(basketball coach)! actually i saw lim on his FB la.. then lead him to the topic.. haha.. i damn pro.. =P what a small world...
i really think i mixed well with all ah pei... haha... uncle killer~

okie this sat do rmb u have ur L1 coach lesson and
tml 9 MUST reach school for site visit to yakult factory.. =)

haha

2010-01-16T00:56:00.001+08:00

officially missing you

2010-01-15T00:32:00.004+08:00

it wasn't that nice when i heard it last year forgot when.. but now.. it sounds pretty =)....

this few days is really chaotic, rushing all kinds of project... the earthquake com gave me a pleasant suprise... haha! i could't believe my own ears when they told me our done-in-3days-given 1month-assignment made it to the finals... omg...
okie now still have

geotech - PBL
PC tech - Hotel new world investigation
steel - mini project
safety inspection
geomatics field work
microbes assignment

doesn't sound at all easy..
been running this rat race.. time to look up and ahead..
maybe i just need a good nice hug and "well done".. FAT HOPE!
shallow minded..

next tues climbing with jacob, 's wife and friends.. and gy!

满头脑都是你

2010-01-07T07:44:00.004+08:00

满头脑都是................. HAHAHHA (not porno okie, horny shit heads)

AH!!! study boy..

浪漫手机

2010-01-02T21:21:00.004+08:00

i've repeatedly delete what i typed.. i'm just out of my mind now..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

thanks for singing my mind.. =)

2010

2010-01-01T19:56:00.006+08:00

hahahahahahahaha....put me on a carousel.
i just realise not long ago i'm talking to myself again... yes i know i have this habit.. but for 2 hours?
it just too confusing for me to understand.. that once again i need to use talk-to-myself to find some sense and logic.... you kept circling.. i'm dizzy..

lately dan's mum predicted my character just by looking at my signature.. i went slient and she asked "not correct ah? hmm".. it was nothing of that... i was so shock that i can't put any words out of my mouth. i was so predictable? damn......
the days ahead looks so promising yet lonely..... happy 2010..
haha maybe gy is right... =)

maybe.

我会想念你

2009-12-17T04:06:00.000+08:00

2nd 42.195

2009-12-05T23:59:00.002+08:00

i wonder if you can see me run? spot me when u are in that blue dimension...

tomorrow will be marathon... or exactly 5 hrs to flag off...
ate a lot just now.. sleepy...

i just need this, like a break thru.. a brave step and then a great finish...
my gonna be second 42.195km......

2009-12-01T19:18:00.001+08:00

一個被嘲笑的夢想，才有被實現的價值

like act cute only

2009-11-30T21:56:00.002+08:00

yeah went for trng ytd.. and talk quite a lot with jacob....
cause only 2 of us there.. haha! grab some new knowledge from him =)

who this guy beside me ah? like act cute only...
HAHA

盧廣仲

2009-11-28T01:04:00.002+08:00

just too sweet...

盧廣仲... lovely....

after the limelight

2009-11-24T21:57:00.005+08:00

got a lot of birthday wish.. thru facebook... Zzz.....
haha that social networking shit is really pulling us together digitally....
yes i was training on my birthday.. don't really feels like skipping any pool trng..

well i got few call namely
lun- midnight call me say wanna go out eat, chee bye think i no need sleep like that.. haha thanks..
gy- fucker call say wanna go out eat but then only can go out early morning and afternoon cause 5pm have work.. NB is almost same unreasonable as lun.. haha...
egg- call to wish me and tell me she gg to work now.. wtf.. haha..

then i went out with some of them
da - went supper with him on 21st
adventure gang - ate steamboat... omg asking for lao sai (chow, jf,wy,double chin,nj,KSN,jenny and jermaine)
classmates - ate today.. they treat me sakae! think will really lao sai now... (HU,DW,CK)

okie thanks a lot too those who sms me..
lilin(who thinks i'll give her apple blah), aichin and jacob, alfiyan, vijay, vanessa, guo shu, wei jie, yu tai, jenny, janice, mili, yiling(who bombard me with some random stuff which i can't get it cause it's midnight) and mummy =) !

i'm really thankful for all wishes..

lots of things coming up... test, projects, lab.. and marathon...
just feeling bit lonely after some limelight session.. haha.. hope eveything goes well =)

EDITED:ALIGHT AND JEWELRY WHO CALLED ME AT HER FRIEND HOUSE.. THANKS AH!! HAHA

kenaboi!!

2009-11-16T10:14:00.002+08:00

i'm back... -from my first whitwater trip which is also my first whitewater competition.. haha.. =)

the scary river after rain

the contestant's cars flooded too with the banks....
haha my number tag!
finisher medal =DD si bei welfare
alright it's an amazing trip -> with my limited vocab that's the most sophisticated word i can provide haha....
there are just too much stuff i need to write and so many thanks i have to give.... just ask me personally what happen k? haha... lazy to think...
thanks - jacob, ai chin, addison, amie, hee, gideon, LJ, hiap luh, daniel, crystal, dave.. oh and all forever-on-110km/hr uncle, duper scary......
okie need to go school liao.. =)

set me thinking............

kenaboi

2009-11-13T18:38:00.003+08:00

i have to pack
-clothes
-sprayskirt
-first aid kid
-toiletries
-booties, buff, tights, ear piece
-of course mobile, passport and some money...
-lastly all my excitement and nervousness

into the bag pack i borrowed from chow...

http://www.kenaboi.com.my/

the very 1st step of achieving is always the hardest...
train hard paddle easy boy.. =)
see you guys again when i'm back sunday midnight! hahaha..

突然很想你

2009-11-07T12:10:00.004+08:00

it's a rare saturday without the sea..
only me myself and acer in cosy room..

突然很想你

resting for my real run on sunday.. wish me good form k?
oh and kayaking training after 15km, wish me with more strength too... hahha..

my whitewater kayaking champion dream..

2009-10-28T20:36:00.008+08:00

haha.. great finally got my photos.. and am ready to post! so i'm back with

this

and this!!

ah... what a trip.. makes me excited for more... thanks! Kota Kinabalu....

recently just did nike run, not a fantastic one... it's was pack with A LOT of i-actually-not-interested-in-running-but-is-nike-so-i-must-run teens.. kept blocking my way... and now result is still not out, not efficient ar..... ZZzz... but still with a nike bottle and tee goodies, it's worth the 20 bucks.. =)

i'm gg for a trip soon.. alone.. not exactly, but just without friends of my age -jacob,old man.. haha
i need to be there.. although sad but after some thinking that should be normal why others don't want to go along.. i was frustrated and confuse why they refuse to go when previously they told me they wanna improve, wanna try too...
then... i was enlighten.. by someone, i forgot is who again.. HAHA.. said -> we(a team) trains like a champion should train, there is only one..
they have different goals to my.. there isn't a need to be afraid of this loneliness
i should't have been such forceful to them.. PAISEI!

i'll be left with zero cash and half a month more to go after that..
but then......
head to the peak boy.. =)

''my whitewater kayaking champion dream..''

give me a break

2009-10-25T23:40:00.003+08:00

give me a break, of your unreasonable rules..

taking a step back it might all be me being stubborn, refusing to accept those lines you tried to draw in everyone's life.. i think i have to use more of my ears than my mouth............... i need a new life.. new challenges.......... and some sleep now.. good night.

pre kk

2009-10-10T12:23:00.002+08:00

tomorrow will be the day i will be doing/going

this

and thiskota kinabalu

omg i'm really excited... alamak pls don't rain like nobody's business... don't waste my precious savings........ haha..

see you guys when i'm back with A LOT photos on thurs!

i wonder if you would play the songs and sway with me?

2009-10-08T02:05:00.002+08:00

reminds me................

i wonder if you would play the songs and sway with me?

be with me

2009-10-02T01:03:00.002+08:00

my heart is pumping.. very hard.. nervous/exciting/anticipating/dreaming/hoping...

be with me =)

society

2009-09-30T00:52:00.003+08:00

today like many other days this holiday.. busy, tiring and satisfying..

did rock climbing and again packing my room... it's never ending, it's not gonna stop.. getting messy - my room... but well at least now my clothes are welly placed.. =)
took a short walk with jf, as usual, on our way home.. and speaks about some trng stuff... hmm... trigger me to think and hooked some image up from my brain..

this quote was told by someone i can't seems to remember.. although repeated in english by many others.. (wayne, jacob, mr lim and mr ong) haha... i clearly and vividly remember someone said this to me...

骄兵必败

i guess u need to read up some chinese books if you don't understand this...
indeed...

willard keep yourself humble always while you're moving up in this horrible fated food chain -Society

pachamama

2009-09-23T00:19:00.001+08:00

pachamama
chris sharma

this is rather new on youtube - big up production...
makes me really wanna climb now..... haha..

pin my hopes

2009-09-20T14:06:00.004+08:00

i just did my level 2 sports climbing ytd.. made a major mistake and nearly cost a life of a man.. pretty sorry for him but then i'm glad that it happen in school and everything was there for me to set back.. i'm really glad... =)

then again getting my level 2 is a dupe delightful thing! another step nearing to my goal...

i got introduce to another jacob's friends, daniel.. he got BIG GUTS.. haha.. quit his job, sell his car.... he went to australia to study.. yes doing no other then u have expected, outdoor adventure learning... what a decision with determination..
makes me wanna go australia too.. haha.. but then if i would, that makes 2yrs of ns+3yrs obs+2 yrs study in australia.....
i will miss spending A LOT of time with my family and friends... i can't seems to let go that part of me... haha..

well i guess now i just have to set my sight to the next coming step since there's a long time more for me to think and choose...
hmm i might want to learn scuba diving(gy kept repeating it).. haha..
that would cost me not just a bomb but an atomic one...

ahhh.... when i can............................
do this...................................

i pin my hopes on others.. please do help me.. =)

changes that can't be solve

2009-09-12T00:18:00.003+08:00

SIKE been great.. it might be my last sike, with SPA, i just realised and i'm glad that i've enjoyed it.. =)

changes is one of the constance that exist in life of mine..
and changes also seems to occur with problems..
and problems also seems to be always finding their way to me. fast.
and i can't seems to solve ANY of them

i've been prompt with some brain damaging question recently..
i can't seem to have any idea how i'm gonna juggle it..

i might cry. i'm demoralised. felt like a drag, especially to my parent, my mum.
seriously.......... i'm...............................

lost.

mum told/notice that i got more white hairs..
i think i've typed too much
i think i've thought too much
i think i need more rest
or maybe lawry's prime rib HAHA! (thanks yee for treating me today.. =] )

i think i just need some..............

thanks for your friendship.. and i wish u very well.. very very, well.. bye.. =)

spaga

2009-09-02T12:51:00.000+08:00

let's see what happen to this in another hour time.. haha..

keane

2009-08-29T21:26:00.005+08:00

i guess there will be a time for ppl who like genre - rock, alternative, indie or just like me who can't really named what label our preference is, and put our music to - "is just different"
and adding on "from those trend follower and chee bye techno".. haha..

well for me leaving the boy band is all or majorly due to this informatics world. when i was introduced to more kinds of genre.
this song, that i'm gonna upload, which i found to my delight while youtubing is some of those that shaped my liking..

ahh.... what great music.. i remember how amaze i was, back at no more then 16 years old, when i first saw the music video.. screaming with my inner voice "this is TMD nice!" haha..
well... time really flies..

updated : like a few mins later when i start checking up all my fav band.. haha
WTF??!!! oasis disbanded??!! NO!!!!!!

new alarm clock

2009-08-24T22:19:00.001+08:00

yeah.....

that's the way..... new alarm clock.. whhoo!!! haha..
my mum bought it.. along with my badly/desperate for it new goggles and trunk.. whaha.. THANKS ma..

my clock 25.80

2009-08-23T13:01:00.007+08:00

this might be one of my dumbest moment, being sabotage by my own curiosity...

out of curiosity and partly because i'm bored.. i wanted to see what happen to my clock which i dropped the day before... the min hand came off.. although it still can be use but it just ticks me off when i can't read minutes.. haha...

so grabbing my gear.. i expose my clock.. and it turns out me snapping 2 wires...
Zzzz...............................
and me without soldering tools pratically means i've just wasted
bloody $25.80... WTF....................................
RIP... clock that have been waking me up for 4 years.... bye bye..

keane

2009-08-19T21:26:00.001+08:00

i'm bringing you to..
somewhere only we know... =)

total addiction to keane's song.. haha!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hmXY2MSrguE&feature=channel

BUT!
of course it was just as nice, after i heard In Finite Flight's cover

lovely

乐,要用功

2009-08-17T21:27:00.001+08:00

is almost like a snake and ladder game.. where some moves might get u to another ladder up and some moves might just pull you down like a snake..

life that is..

interesting.. how i've survived my 19 years.. interesting how dramatic my thinking and body have transformed and differ from just 3 years back.. just like snake and ladder game.. i step up to a ladder..

well ahead of me now.. a gigantic snake, ready to pull me down anytime i expose my weakness.. ah!

have i gone so far in a circle just to see where i fell? i'm greatly demoralised..

i kept in mind what mum told me.. 乐,要用功.. now awaits me is just that opportunity that is promised to come when i put in effort..

no longer i wanna be the one to browse facebook and got envy by the photos taken by my friends.. (one by one.. they caught their chance..) and complain what i've missed and grief over it..
IT's OVER! THAT! is over....

ps. i promise myself
living life to it's fullest..

triumph

2009-08-02T12:55:00.000+08:00

triumph

i wonder why i cried

2009-07-23T21:34:00.005+08:00

one of strangest moment happened to me just a hour or so ago..
i came back from running, while doing cool down, i was watching tv(standing behind dad). it was showin mindee ong doing volunteery work in taiwan..
she went to a home, and it was this old mischievous lady that caught her attention.. taking her temperature and helping her for health check.. she fidget and refuse to get a proper temperature check, acting like a kid.. a widow since young she bear 8 child, 4 which pass away, the rest only visit her occasionally(rather/might be even less then annually).. abandon her at home.
when mindee ong asked her "are you happy? -with your life (in mandarin)". she laugh and answered "YES". but when mindee persist, urge to understand more, asking about her child. she remain silence and tears filled her eyes to the brim..
it's only when mindee quickly reponse, to her reaction, saying "it's okay.. you got us................."
she grab mindee into her arms and hug her like her's, breaking into tears..

me behind my dad, was already wiping away, i can't differentiate tears or sweat.. quickly.. i went to take a bath(i know i might cry like baby if i continues watching.. haha)

i remind myself that while this world progressess, i'll keep my roots down deep.. it's only when ur anchors are plant down deep, then u ride the waves that hits you time and time again..

the old lady acts like a underage when she hugs mindee.. but it was this pure and innocent actions that let me felt, i just need to refresh and go back to how i faced this world when i was a kid.. not being fearful to try and anticipating every single seconds that is coming..

i'll need to do some reflecting................................

loving this song

2009-07-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

loving this song

i'm damn EXCITED..3 star assessment!!

my 1st salad

2009-07-04T23:57:00.005+08:00

was having fever and felt really unwell ytd and this morning.. skip trng and rest home.. glad that i'm recovering now.. TMD scare i was infected with H1N1..
still feel quite dizzy and my appetite pls come back to papa soon..

ah! yes i got lots of free time today.. so i wanted to try cook(afternoon).. but who know i will fell asleep right on my com's table.. for 5 hrs.. haha..
i woke up around 9pm.. was a little hungry and want something light.. made my way to ntuc and bought some vegetables and try to make myself my-1st-salad! haha.. i guess it's quite a success with my newly thousand island source

hahaa.. took around half and hour to get all stuff ready.. (lettuce, carrot, potato and APPLE!)
and the end product......................................

okie la quite nice.. i will make one soon again!

(went back fb.. haha.. farmville quite interesting... HAHAHA!!)

rubbishly nonsensical blabbering

2009-07-03T07:44:00.003+08:00

finally tried cooking with much help from dan and gy.. what a meal.. haha!

got quite demoralise ytd when i got back my papers seeing the 33/50 piss me off, when my friends score 48/50 mostly.. maybe for 5 seconds.. then i realise.. HEY i passed! haha.. then chiong back my seat with =) and play facebook... my friends got quite fed up seeing another classmates of mine,he hates, scores better then me when he skipped most of the lessons..
but i was in a total facebook mind so i just "uh uh uh uh" all his fustration.. hah..

i'm starting to pass all my modules! yeah~~

方大同's songs quite cool ar? haha.. rubbishly nonsensical blabbering..

banana booking in

2009-06-10T01:41:00.005+08:00

all my buddies gg in army soon!!!! omg.............

listening: oasis's songs

i will miss you guys.. =/

our 1st night cycling

so fast it's been the 8th yrs.. from youth we grew to adulthood(physically only).. haha.. let's hope while our body slowly grows older we keep our mind as young ,as simple, as possible..

keep those dreams alive, banana.. =)

FO camp =)

2009-06-09T03:14:00.003+08:00

i lost a pooh ball ytd.. just right not long after i commented it's cute... diao... zz.. hahaha!!

recently been treating physical injuries.. feels like a old man visiting tie da often..

WAVEHOUSE gonna be at sentosa soon!! wtf... dream coming true!

btw just visit the new quicksilver open at hereen.. totally it's for posers.. went to look for wetsuit and i only found tee's and board shorts.. diao.. okie nuff saying mundane stuff..

something interesting..
FO camp... it's definitaly a fantastic one with lots of new jokes and friends! ahhh.. been so long i went for a camp, almost forgot all the cheers i had.. seems like a shift of attitude and mindset drastically..
i guess most of them enjoy the last day when we provide them the chance for power boating.. haha.. still rmb i had the almost same reaction like them when i 1st ride power boats.. and kayaking is a blast! dunno when i will get to see photos..

talking bout kayaking.. i wrote on a survey where they ask what u see yourself in the future.. and i wrote there big..

WHITEWATER KAYAKING CHAMPION...

hahah!

kin lei changi.. let me take my assessment..
ahh.. just can't stop imagining bout it..

timetable rocks!

2009-04-17T01:12:00.004+08:00

i just got my timetable.. it suxs...
i only end school on 4 on tues, the rest are 6....
i only starts school on 10 on fri, the rest are 8!!!

wtffffffffffffffffff

but is not as sux as it looks.. it's a chance for me.. a chance for me to make changes into my life..

ar! sounds all positive now..
i will bloody chiong to september... =)

manythanks

changes

2009-04-03T04:29:00.007+08:00

can I?
would I?
did I?
should I?

changes

a short word for me and you. but hold hugh meaning/emotions/motivation/excitement to me..
just read a big book (or half of it due to constraint of time) - Who Moved My Cheese? by Spencer Johnson. if u are free do check this out..

but half of it already bought tons of knowledge or rather realization to, life. i have to admit and i can't run away *beware the man with one book - saint thomas aquinas

change is the law of life.. i don't like to read that quotes regarding life, it goes on.. it seems depressing and rather emo-ish. but nevertheless i can't agree more. it does goes on whether u like it or not.. i got poke on my skins for seconds with needles call adrenaline at the thought of it, that the way trying to make the best out of your life might be as simple as countering changes.. a conversation with daniel suddenly pop in to my mind where he share with us saying something like "i always try to keep myself on my tip of my toes.. dashing out of my comfort zone whenever there are one.." i like what he said, and can't agree further..
but i guess i've not been doing so for quite some time, i'm getting rusty and lazy..
well the big word of the day steps in... changes..

i'm all pump up for a great adventure ahead..
leap with me.. =)

wanna look for some photos of leaping and i found myself this.. haha.. picture speaks it all..

i'm damn excited, over. EVERYTHING

2009-01-14T00:47:00.000+08:00

still cricling in the c.s lewis washing machine qutoes..
hard to get out, hard to stop it..

1.Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival

2.Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point

i wonder if the exaggerate cold weather would frozen my heart?
or i would burn and melt the ice that tries to pull me over?

i'm damn excited, over. EVERYTHING. =]

what's now?

2009-01-10T02:58:00.000+08:00

been searching for a job to filled up this slept-too-much-in-the-afternoon, 3am cold cold night
haha

unwillingly, internet. i went to check up some(a lot) climbing stuff and yes what jacob say - climbing equipment very ex de lor. haha. before i got blister on my eyes for those endless "next" i ta-bao-ed myself duck rice and ruffles. and now i'm back, urge to find some gossip, juicy news from the world-my friends. i got lost when i placed my hands on the keyboard(not in the mood for friendster) i AGAIN suddenly remember. I. GOT. A. BLOG!=]haha..
reading one of my very dear friend's blog make me feel really little, as in uneducated/not knowledgable. i've always hope to be like him and Him being able to trigger one's mind in words. and not just plan writing/typing/accounting. it might work if i go for english lesson. haha. but being able to write does not leads to interesting/exciting essays, it might help, that truly fax our complex thinking to another's brain.
or maybe i should join the PAP kindergarden, starting all over again. haha.. then i might move my pen about some really bombastic and lively apple eating afternoon. ZZzzz...

well, after gathering all my emo-ness back to my ass, i sat it on with my cute/o-biang computer chair. realising how much i got affected just by reading his blog, i'm shock. not like "OMFG!!!!!" but like "oh". back at those good heavy armour and garment days where people are fasinated by every book they read, human now can choose not to -books.
we have the internet. i would say you can get almost everything on google. then i check out the prince of internet right behind google jehovah-wikia, haha wikipedia la! it gave me "the Internet is defined by its interconnections and routing policies".
hmm, "defined by its interconnections". we're indeed being connected closer to everyone by just plugging in that visual world.

so what now? i asked..
we creating a world for ourself?
we set the rules for that world?
we shape the world like how we want it?
could this world i'm living might be someone's else internet? (too much matrix)
am i the Norton in this world?
or i might just be a virus?!

well i realise what i want was never to be the virus nor the Norton. okie fine i know you might bug me with it. "nor the AVG". satisfied? haha..
i just want to be a webpage. neither i want to destruct nor construct or restruct(there is no this word in dictionary actually, i just check out. haha, nvm live with it). i feel more like teaching others to contruct. one hand i'm afraid of NS(national serivce) on the other i'm anticipating what comes after that.. Outward Bound Singapore. haha.. my minds are filled to the brim with scenario with me in it as a instructor. haha.. teaching others what i love, leading others what i enjoy.
it sound absurb to the typical. but to me, it's hard for me to give up happiness to money. don't get me wrong, i guess you know friends(if there are still people reading my blog. haha), i'm not "loaded kia". i'm actually "pok-khai kia".

like what i read from the news. this economic crisis affects everyone, except either you are poor or you are not human. i guess it did't affect me much.. so that makes me.. haha.. you know..
it sets me worrying for my future and most of all, my parents. have they thought for anything better than this they are living for?
can i support them with my dream job at OBS then?
will you then work for something that would sacrifice the material comfort?

so many unknowns and questions that we have in this might-be-just-a-flop world..
or maybe i should't think of it but to just study for the exams that is coming? haha..
shallow mind..

time of times

2008-12-16T14:06:00.000+08:00

somehow i felt obligated to post something up, somthing out of my life, somehting big, generous, even meaningful, something not what i did this afternoon, yesterday, blah blah.. nothing mundane nothing me. nothing.

and i can't. just could't find something that is out of me.
nothing is that selfless under this, what i put on my msn, man-made sky.

i went to my always visit web to try to find that something that will thrill my life right again, stamp my life with mana and bring me running once more.. (youtube) haha..

"the time of times" by badly drawn boy

hmm time of times... is this the time of times of yours? (x3) i asked myself..
if there is none that would bring himself to a selfless act..
well, it's time to shine..

SCM 08

2008-12-12T09:34:00.001+08:00

yeah yeah..

standard char 1905/12287
gun time:4.48.37
net time:4.42.3

i'm really proud of myself finishing a marathon. guess most of my friends would have know that i did-i try to bomba them with every details i remeber of the race.. and mostly why they rmb, i guess, they been asking me bout my leg(i'm still limping.. Zzz..) and i 'd mostly reply them :" aye! i MARATHON runner hor!"

haha.. lame.. both physically and mentally!

well JULIAN is back from aut!! been playing basketball the past 2 days, contributing to my limping legs.. i really enjoy being with everyone again.. ya ya.. you gonna tell me it's not the same anymore.. let me tell you what.. YOU ARE NOT THE SAME, that's why... don't blame others for the fact that you are changing.. (arr.. just realise i'm like complaining when i should account what happened.. haha.. yeah btw, i'm not pinpointing any one.. just a whole i meant)
as long i know that fat ass enjoys his stay i'm glad.. =]

okie this song.. i rarely would be attracted by chinese songs the 1st time i hear it
羅志祥 - 愛轉角 , yes, i'm a bit outdated.. and yes is because that show then i heard this song.. HAHA! anyway the song is really sweet.. the lyrics is like drug making you addicted to it.. been repeating it for 712384189 times since i asked teh to send me..
it reminds me how we would feel eveytime we tried to change ourself just to suit a person we like.. i know, teary eyes.. strange, but i had that almost everytime it repeats itself - and in real life is like that too i guess, when we tried(not resiprocal to the amount i repeated the songs.. haha) to love and fail - we end up crying.. =(

the phrase "是否有爱情的美".. FAV!.. haha..

hmm.. 爱情的美.... 爱情的美.... 爱情的美..

like those times that you would think of someone hug your pillow tight and roll on your bed(if your bed big enough la), with a silly smiling.. haha..
or would burst to laughter when you think of what happen between you and her, then quickly hide away from others just not to make others fantasy run and end up with a conclusion that you are siao.. haha..
or even reading her/his msg like a thousand times, then if ever one of the text would to contain names she/he gave you (ie lazy pig), you would again roll yourself somewhere thinking yourself is her lazy pig.. and is a must to unmark that text to unread(sony erricson phones) and try to keep it as long as the phone will last.. hahah.. all this lame stuff that we did (haha, yes, i'd do that again when is comes to my turn)

nuff saying all this sweet stuff, just wait for my next post with julian and all in it.. ta ta =]

so long

2008-12-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

oh ya.. forgot, i own a blog.. haha..

was about to vomit everything interesting that i encounter when i release that might just make u wanna "alt F4" me.. ask me rather then read me friends.. =]
so i went finding something really inspiring to give a treat to all(not much i guess. haha!) that have waited so long for this post.. haha..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-xXbkte0TWY
hear what he says on 1.30 min.. what a life that all(again i think it might be just me.. haha!) desire.. ahh... i can't wait for bali..
well yes yes yes ken bradshaw is cool but then kelly slater is still the best or quicksliver is the best.. haha..

well soon gg be standard charterd marathon and RIKE(round island kayaking expedition), ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND? i would asked myself maybe a few years back but i'm anticipating it now.. time really flies.. and yes speaking bout time, that KUKU julian is coming back on some unknown date which he refuse to reveal.. what the frog? thinking that i'll see his bloody face makes me exciting..

and look at the most handsome guy in this vid http://www.xin.sg/videoskin.php?vidz=19585

haha!

army half 08

2008-08-26T08:05:00.002+08:00

am quite dissapointed with the timing.. well i guess u can't go any better when u got a fuck up knee..
so yes.. 3 days right after i got my knee fixed at some looks-pro-but-old chinese sensei, chinatown, with dan.. i ran my very first 21km race, very first army half..

placing 1814 / 5200
net - 2:17:12:12
gun - 2:19:39:39

almost cried when i recieve my medal.. not that i can't hold the happiness in my heart any longer.. just that my knee hurts like fuck.. nvm.. i'm glad i finish it anyway..
rest well boy.. let's prepare for a marathon.. =]

fuck up legs

2008-08-17T21:24:00.000+08:00

studied with some really great CLASS(thomas says) SPA ppl..
haha..

yes, it is one of the very 1st time i did this year.. (touch my heart and speak only truth).. i really need to buck up..
okie other then studying it was almost all about making fun of eugene.. haha.. i seriously think eugene is a duper funny guy.. not saying he is humorous, just that his reaction is EXTRAordinary or rather comical.. haha..

right after that they went to yishun for nasi lemak where i went back to the lands of trees to play basketball.. AND.. my knee or i should typed my whole leg is in pain.. they are giving way.. why so? cos that FUCKER jia yao- we went trng for army half, and ran frm yew tee-kranji-sungi kadut-lim chu kang(visiting the fish,goat,frog farm)-made lots of detours-old lim chu kang road-and back to his hse(油池) haha.. that's fuck up tired..
so until that game where i got to team with some kuku cheena guy, i gave up.. or my legs gave me up and let gravity take it's course.. i almost kissed the floor.. Zzz..
was quite worried so i actually sms lilin, jun da, dan and called JY whether they know any good chinese sensei.. so except JY who was busy with something he told me he will give me the address later when he got it frm his mum.. the evil trio was generally quite happy to hear me injured.. haha! basket..

so i was in great pain and could't fall asleep.. i went to watch search some movies on the net.. where i watched this humongously/greatly rated by me show.. "pursuit of happyness".. i could't give anything lesser then fantastic to will smith's performance, lead actor.. he really "bought" me into the charactor's world-almost cried..

go go go and go watch it yourself.. inspiring indeed..

and praises, that i woke up with a movable leg.. still in pain yes, but at least i still can walk.. not to mention i left my com and lights switched on when i slept ytd.. not that i'm lazy, just that i cannot afford to move another inche.. lots of THANKS up there! =)

just to get a little

everyday

今天有一点想哭

结果还是空虚..... -_-"

生日快乐 维乐

and now a new chapter, end of OCS

we're million miles of water, apart

ensemble

go your way...

love sick?

some went their own way

after jcc

before i fly off

a little of myself a little of just now a little everywhere

a motivation

april 16, little soul to soul

messed up

part of this world but not of this world ; i'm

christmas.. love and sharing..

beginning and ending...

i need a 月光宝盒 too...

也許老天真的对你不公平但是老天又真的对谁公平过呢?

after 17 days of travelling......

i'll see you soon

17:5 使徒對主說,求主加增我們的信心

a day with more than 20hrs of sleep

again and again

you who made me smile..

L.O.V.E

suicidal (?) (!) (.)

失望

gy-trips ahead-rawr!

on bus 168 to tamp

未经一番寒彻骨 焉得梅花扑鼻香

老爸

slow down, change ur gear.. for the sloppy roads ahead.....

(re)joy

i've been keeping my hopes unbroken

i just love jack johnson much..

thank You

i wanna have some fun!

bye =)

poor toes for that chio bu

very 无聊

decision making...

cycling bodohs'

before sleep..

byebye chang

幸福在那?

無名 lilian

就这样过了我的一天

hello.. xD

napfa yeah!~

hey

photoish post...

uncle killer

haha

officially missing you

满头脑都是你

浪漫手机

2010

我会想念你

2nd 42.195

like act cute only

盧廣仲

盧廣仲... lovely....

after the limelight

kenaboi!!

kenaboi

突然很想你

my whitewater kayaking champion dream..

give me a break

pre kk

i wonder if you would play the songs and sway with me?

be with me

society

pachamama

pin my hopes

changes that can't be solve

spaga

生日快乐维乐

未经一番寒彻骨焉得梅花扑鼻香